Friday, January 24, 2014
truth - as I try to find and then lose it....
I have realized lately , the most difficult task for me to decide is which group I belong. Even a bigger challenge remains to keep myself unbiased of so many things happening around and to know why I need a group to prove my truth
. The more I think I am unbiased about my choice the more biased views seem to become. I am 22 now and already have seen so many different genres of thoughts and ideology . Recent elections and dramatic rise of AAP has suddenly created new waves of thought. But quicker are the people who already know which poles they belong to. And I am very well part of that magnet and certainly not the one whose thoughts changes but rather looks for those evidence which only makes my decision to chose a particular pole even stronger without ever trying to look how world looks from the opposite side.
Consequently we have people who talk to us good on our face but in their mind they had already assigned us the particular location. The biggest of challenge for our country is not the universal acceptance of secularism but the challenge to know the real truth which already has the previous criteria imbibed in it. And same is with me. And hence is my challenge to break this cage.
Inspired by Gandhi's talisman of introspection leaves me sometimes in even wider range of doubts.
But atleast one thing is very clear , truth is one of the toughest thing to discover for me. Truth , atleast to me ,don’t seem to come spontaneously may be because my subconscious is too much damaged by deliberate biased thoughts of surroundings. Truth still seems a distant destination for me , searching truth may perhaps make me break my own glass keeping pillars of thoughts stacked on each other since last 22 years. Ofcourse some of those pieces of truth might be correct but for a stack to function they have to be aligned correctly.
Which again leads me to believe even more strongly in god because he is the only bridge between me and truth . And somewhere I have read hope never lets you down . And I will keep questioning my truth and at the same time my partial biased flickering mind will keep saying wrong words. But I assure you they will be more refined then yesterday.